Katrina Angelina, Founder Be the Light International
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Even In my darkest times, there has always been a connection to the light.
Growing up there was abuse and neglect which left me broken. Constantly I felt like I was a burden, not wanted, always in the way; ashamed to be alive. I was unable to make friends and felt very alone in the world. I just wanted to be a part of a family and be loved.
In the grasping for acceptance, I chose a path that led to alcoholic drinking, drug use, jails and suicide attempts. No one knew what to do with me and I had given up on life, I just wanted relief from the pain torturing my heart.
As I meandered through my twenties, I was lost and angry at God who I thought had abandoned me. My life had no meaning and I only lived my days to drink to excess and give myself away to people who did not value my worth. I was diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety, Complex PTSD and chronic late stage alcoholism. I gave up on God, yet prayed nightly for Him to take my life.
My rebellious actions and callous attitude took me to prison in 2005 where I served a felony term for aggravated assault on peace officer and received treatment for alcoholism. When I was released in 2006 I drank again and was led right back down the path of destruction. Feeling unworthy of love, I gave myself away to the enemy.
I refuted the Bible on the premise it was written by men and all men lie and hurt people. My actions were of selfishness, abuse and trauma induced rage. There was no hope in sight for me, I just wanted to die. Trying to ease my suffering I chose unhealthy relationships, tortured my body with alcohol, and became a worshiper of the world.
In 2007 I found a 12 step program and stayed sober for years, yet found something was missing. I relied too heavily on the members and used the meetings as God. Trauma had a deep root into my soul and I did not realize the effects until my divorce. God reached down to me in this soul shattering time and told me to start serving others. I gave my life back to Christ fervently pleading to God for answers; He gave me one, "Pick up the Bible."
Feeling completely abandoned and alone I cried out to God and He rescued me from my knees by pointing me to the Gospel. God loved me back to life. Ever since I have been delving into the Word and serving others with the same afflictions that I thought would end me. God has given me certain trails through this to show me that my worth does not depend on what others think of me and that a deep intimate relationship with Jesus is all I need to feel loved.
Today I am 15 years clean and sober, dedicated to Christ, have a wonderful job and film business all while raising a sweet boy named Jude as a single mother. His biological father passed away due to an overdose and God has placed it on my heart to help lead recovery meetings and help those with PTSD and trauma.
I trust and have faith God will provide for all of my needs and rely on Him in the storm when the enemy attacks. Even in the madness there is peace and I am so thankful for the scars, because they led me to an intimate relationship with Jesus who never left my side. In 2022 Governor of Montana, Mr. Gianforte granted me a Full Pardon releasing me from my felony charges! Nothing is impossible now that I have been redeemed from a life of anger, suicidal thoughts, abusive actions and trauma. God is SO Good!
I have always felt a pull towards serving abroad and recently received my private pilot's certificate to travel and help empower communities to gain their worth in Christ. I am excited to see where God leads me in this journey! In November 2022 I traveled to Johannesburg, Africa to assist Mission Aviation Fellowship. If you feel led to give you may donate to this mission here. I will be going back every other year. Please see the film I created below on the most recent mission to help serve people with severe dense cataracts.
With a new outlook and source of worth, I am no longer a slave to fear, what others think of me, nor am I a servant to the world; I am a servant leader for Jesus!
I am lead to use my testimony to help heal those who have suffered from trauma through the redemptive heart of God. I want to save lives through His Word.
No one is too far gone, too broken or unworthy of His forgiveness. You are a beautiful child of God; truly loved and anchored to a true source of worth who is in control of all things. Freedom was found when I accepted this in my heart. When I breathe my last breathe and fly away to meet Jesus in the clouds, the only thing that matters will be my relationship with God and how I treated others on this earth. May you join me in prayer on this journey, fully surrendered to His will.
Many blessings and love,
Katrina Angelina
In the grasping for acceptance, I chose a path that led to alcoholic drinking, drug use, jails and suicide attempts. No one knew what to do with me and I had given up on life, I just wanted relief from the pain torturing my heart.
As I meandered through my twenties, I was lost and angry at God who I thought had abandoned me. My life had no meaning and I only lived my days to drink to excess and give myself away to people who did not value my worth. I was diagnosed with severe depression, anxiety, Complex PTSD and chronic late stage alcoholism. I gave up on God, yet prayed nightly for Him to take my life.
My rebellious actions and callous attitude took me to prison in 2005 where I served a felony term for aggravated assault on peace officer and received treatment for alcoholism. When I was released in 2006 I drank again and was led right back down the path of destruction. Feeling unworthy of love, I gave myself away to the enemy.
I refuted the Bible on the premise it was written by men and all men lie and hurt people. My actions were of selfishness, abuse and trauma induced rage. There was no hope in sight for me, I just wanted to die. Trying to ease my suffering I chose unhealthy relationships, tortured my body with alcohol, and became a worshiper of the world.
In 2007 I found a 12 step program and stayed sober for years, yet found something was missing. I relied too heavily on the members and used the meetings as God. Trauma had a deep root into my soul and I did not realize the effects until my divorce. God reached down to me in this soul shattering time and told me to start serving others. I gave my life back to Christ fervently pleading to God for answers; He gave me one, "Pick up the Bible."
Feeling completely abandoned and alone I cried out to God and He rescued me from my knees by pointing me to the Gospel. God loved me back to life. Ever since I have been delving into the Word and serving others with the same afflictions that I thought would end me. God has given me certain trails through this to show me that my worth does not depend on what others think of me and that a deep intimate relationship with Jesus is all I need to feel loved.
Today I am 15 years clean and sober, dedicated to Christ, have a wonderful job and film business all while raising a sweet boy named Jude as a single mother. His biological father passed away due to an overdose and God has placed it on my heart to help lead recovery meetings and help those with PTSD and trauma.
I trust and have faith God will provide for all of my needs and rely on Him in the storm when the enemy attacks. Even in the madness there is peace and I am so thankful for the scars, because they led me to an intimate relationship with Jesus who never left my side. In 2022 Governor of Montana, Mr. Gianforte granted me a Full Pardon releasing me from my felony charges! Nothing is impossible now that I have been redeemed from a life of anger, suicidal thoughts, abusive actions and trauma. God is SO Good!
I have always felt a pull towards serving abroad and recently received my private pilot's certificate to travel and help empower communities to gain their worth in Christ. I am excited to see where God leads me in this journey! In November 2022 I traveled to Johannesburg, Africa to assist Mission Aviation Fellowship. If you feel led to give you may donate to this mission here. I will be going back every other year. Please see the film I created below on the most recent mission to help serve people with severe dense cataracts.
With a new outlook and source of worth, I am no longer a slave to fear, what others think of me, nor am I a servant to the world; I am a servant leader for Jesus!
I am lead to use my testimony to help heal those who have suffered from trauma through the redemptive heart of God. I want to save lives through His Word.
No one is too far gone, too broken or unworthy of His forgiveness. You are a beautiful child of God; truly loved and anchored to a true source of worth who is in control of all things. Freedom was found when I accepted this in my heart. When I breathe my last breathe and fly away to meet Jesus in the clouds, the only thing that matters will be my relationship with God and how I treated others on this earth. May you join me in prayer on this journey, fully surrendered to His will.
Many blessings and love,
Katrina Angelina
Recent Trip to Africa Mission Trip Film
1 Peter 5:10
8 Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a
roaring lion looking for someone to devour.
9 Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family
of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.
10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have
suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.
11 To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen.